Finding your purpose....

   
Jeremiah 29:11 says it best I believe, For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. ESV.
     Jerimiah is reaffirming what God has placed in our hearts before we were even born into this world. God has a purpose for each and everyone of us! He has things He has placed in our hearts He wants us to do to benefit His kingdom! The real queastion is are we fullfing them...
   At the beginning of the new year I made a list of goals for 2017. I want to see many things come to pass this year... I know God has place many things in my heart to be done for His glory.
    However I have found myself pondering on the thought why have I not brought these things to pass before now... honestly I don't have an answer for my own question.
    My continued health issues have made me to see things in a different perspective than ever before. I find myself longing to do things I have not been able to enjoy like sewing...
 One of the things I have always wanted was my own 18 inch doll clothes boutique. My girls are way past the age of playing with them. Yet that is my favorite thing to sew. I so want to write a children's book and have the outfits for girls to dress their dolls and bring the book to life during play time! I have started a book on my story and have not completed it yet...
 Typing is hard at times .... yet I find myself yearning to do these things!
     Proverbs 16:3 says commit your work to the Lord and your plans will be established. (ESV)
This is my prayer that the Lord will help me see these things through. My prayer is when I stand before Him one day I can say I used all of my talents and purposes, that He placed in my heart to do.
I had a MRI a week ago, the findings were not what we had hoped for, my right arm and hand go numb and stays cooler than the rest of my body and wakes me up in the middle of the night in excruciating pain! The MRI showed compressed disk in my c5 and c6. However because we went through this last year with my right leg, My family Dr. is concerned it might be MS. We will know next Thursday. I say these things because I don't want someone else to miss their God given purpose! Live each day to its fullest for the Kingdom! Now my family and I are not believing in what the doctors think! We are claiming healing and life into my situation! We are believing that my health will return, because I am better used healed for Gods glory !
  I am praising Jesus in the hallway for these things. So much so I intend to start sewing again! I want fulfil the the things God has placed in my heart! What are you putting off for another day? What if we miss our opportunity because we we think we have plenty of time to see it through....
      What is it God has placed in your heart to complete? I hope you find time to see it through! I will be praying you do! I can't wait to share with you the things I get done for my Jesus! If you think of it please lift up my name in prayer ! For God makes no mistakes ! We are trusting in healing! Praying for each of you thanks for stopping by....  💜Shellie
                                     

It Is Well ......

Yesterday was one of those days we dread so much.... You know the phone rings and the caller on the other line has bad news! For our family those phone calls seem to come to quick and so close together! When the caller is informing your family has just lost another loved one. 

My niece and nephew lost their Dad unexpected yesterday.

It's in those moments I have found I think we all reflect on our lives.... I know all too well the pain of loosing a father... This year will mark 17 yrs.... my has time so quickly went by us? 

The Bible gives the best comfort for times like this a promise , for those of us who choose Him to be our savior, we will close our eyes in death and open them in His presence! One day I will see those who love Him and asked Him into their heart again one day soon!

Yet even still the grief of a loss will still be very profound in our lives, as we grieve the loved one.

Through out my life I have learned grief comes in many different forms. It's not always because a loss of a loved one though that sparks grief! 

All though I do believe that is one of the most crippling griefs there is! 

Jesus even grieved his friend Lazarus  in John 11:35.

I have found myself grieving things this year, that did not pertain to actual death.

I have grieved the loss of health, the ability to do things I once could do with such ease, the loss of what my appearance once was, I have grieved being the wife I have worked so hard to be, grieved not being able to work in the ministry 100%. 

I know you may think that all these things sound so selfish to grieve the loss of such carnel things. Yet it's just the opposite, being able to openly grieve them in my heart has helped me grow. Even still I find my self saddened every now and then when I look back over 2016.

 However that grief has taught me that although I have some pretty serious health issues, I serve a God that has performed miracles and protected me from death not once but twice, in just one year! My health may not be perfect but I am super thankful for the health I have. Not having to carry oxygen everywhere I go, no longer depending on a wheelchair or a walker! My legs have been restored as well as my heart and lungs! Although I struggle with chronic fatigue and I still need help with lots of daily activities God choose to leave me here and draw my family closer to one another.

Although I have gained weight due to in mobility and meds, my body is marked by multiple scars from major surgeries this year. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and the most beautiful part of someone is their heart not their outward appearance. Each scar tells a beautiful story of grace and love of a mighty savior! 

My hubby is the most patient man in the world I believe, all though carrying the burden of my responsibilities and his, it has been done with such love always reminding me all things will come in time .... As far as ministry goes God has constantly reminded in in my heart that I am doing exactly what He has for me too do at this moment. 

Grief can be used to grow us in the darkest moments of our lives. However we have to choose to allow Him to grow us! Wether it's a loss of a loved one.... I have lost a lot over the years a father,all of my grandparents but one, a sister and a nephew who was like a brother.... Each loss has taught me a great deal! God will never leave you nor forsake you in your time of need! What are you grieving? Will you give to Him and let Him heal what we can not? Will you let Him grow you and love you? I promise it will be worth the time and effort... give Him your grief and  fears.... He promises beauty for your ashes....

All In His Time

    Ecclesiastes 3:1 says it best..... To everything there is a season, and a time to every person under the heaven!
     2016 has now came and gone and 2017 has greeted us with much joy and on going pain. My on going health struggle has brought so many things to light. Trusting God for what has not been seen or felt yet... I still believe total healing will come..... I have spent countless hours pouring over goals for 2017. I don't believe in resolutions... They are to easily broken... Goals in my state are achivievable.
    The one thing I want to achieve more than anything is to grow closer to my Jesus. To spend quality time above the already study time with Him.... He has placed so many beautiful things in my heart to accomplish in 2017. It's going to take being truly focused on Him and praising Him in the hallway for things I need physically and haven't received healing for yet....
   My health struggle has been hard and changed my life in many ways! My prayer is too always let others see the amazing God I serve in all I do! Even when it's a struggle to type.
         I have truly realized over the past year that God will even use the broken pieces that I thought no one could restore... To revitalize someone else's heart....
   We all go through deep valleys in our life when we feel like the cartoon character who is using a straw to breathe as they are treading water trying not to drown in the flooding storm. I have found it's how we use these times that really grow us for Jesus!
2 Corinthians 9:10 says, Now He who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will supply and multiply your seed for sowing and increase the harvest of your righteousness.God has given each of us, our own resources! He wants to show them to us, but are we really ready to see them? Are we ready to truly use them? He wants us to see the kindness, goodness, and love.Even in the hardest of circumstances. What are you battling this morning? Is it your health, is it relationship problems, maybe spiritual issues? How are you going to see this challenge? Are you going to give up and be the victim to all who is watching? Or will will see the goodness that has or is coming by acting like the victor ! After all God word will stand true ! Pray it back to Him, show Him your standing firm in you battle. Instead of asking why me, why not ask why not me! Watch as your story unfolds before you as never before.
Thank you for stopping by today... I pray something has touched your heart enough to stand and fight, for the victory God has for you! Just remember how you see the battle won may not be how it
 Plays out! Just keep remembering who knows the endo of your story!
                              Praying your day is filled with many blessings today!