Child of a King 👑

As a pastors wife you learn real quick you live in a glass house ! Expected to be perfect , in all you do especially your kids ! They actually learn real quick the part they are expected to play as well ! They see both the good and the bad side of church ! They see the hurt and the joys that come from serving !!!! As a pastors wife and a mom , one of your biggest fears is that your child has learned how to live as a Christian yet hasnt quite gotten it .... I had began questioning just that after our move .... My youngest daughter had been struggling and battling no other than a spiritual battle that would shake our family to its core !!!! So I decided to take my concerns to my heavenly Dad !!!! Left them with Him !!!! I never lost hope !!! It wasn't my place to judge ! Only she knew if her confession of salvation was real or not ! Crazy I know but that Mommy instinct just wouldn't go away !!! Sunday after church my hubby felt the need to walk over and join in with the youth service ! I was talking with some of the ladies , hadn't paid much attention of how much time had passed ... When they returned , they had awesome news !!!! My sweet girl asked Jesus in her heart for real !!! There was a difference this time in her face , eyes , and what she said !!! She told me the other times it was just a prayer , she had never truly trusted Jesus with anything really till last night !!! She felt different !!! She was beaming !!!! I'm so proud she can no truly say she is a child of the King !!!! My God sure is good !!! Never cease to storm the throne room over something in your heart !!! Even if it doesn't quite make sense !!!! Because our thoughts are near and dear to our sweet Lord !!!! 

Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6 

I'm glad she is still learning and I'm still teaching her !!! Blessings Shellie 💜

Trusting my Lord ❤️

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”

Deuteronomy 31:6

I have spent a lot of time reflecting the past few days ! As I have enjoyed my blessed week ! January 21st is such a harsh day for my heart ... It marks the anniversary of my Mommaw going home & the birthday of the little boy we were going to adopt ... He is five now .... It has never bothered me as much as it did this year !!! Unfortunately it has been a wave of emotions this year ! We lost the adoption in the moms 8 month .... Nursery was ready , we were ready to bring him home .... I must remind myself Gods knows best ! We often plan our lives even when we knew God was in is agreeing to adopt! He changed the plan ! It's often rough on us when God changes up His plan ... As the years have passed I have realized why God changed the plan around... He seen things I could not ! But know now ....Thay reminds me to be strong and courages !!! Because He is always with me!!!! God is good even when He changes His mind ! He had my interest in mind ! He will never leave me or forsake me !!!! He knows the plans , I'm so willing to follow ! How about you !!!! Blessings 💜Shellie 

When Everything we Try seems it isn't working !

 And  he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.

Luke 9:23

We all go through those times in our lives, when everything we touch or try just doesn't seem like it's working !!! I have been there countless times !!!! Some of you may be there now !!!! I have found more times than not , we are spinning our wheels ! The reason why is because all to often we forget to ask our our heavenly Dad if it's what He wants ! I know that sounds silly , but it's true ! For instance it's that time of year again everyone is wanting to diet ! Either that want to be healthier or they need to loose weight ! I cringe when I read I want to loose such and such by such and such date ! Here's another good one to consider I believe I will change the way I do things because so and so said I need to change things up ! Let me ask some questions ! First have you really spent time talking to our heavenly Dad about it ? Have you asked Him if that's the order He have you do things ? When it come to diets have you talked to Your Heavenly Dad and your hubby ? More times than Not the answer to that is no !!! It ends up leaving us frustrated and over whelmed ! You see It's important to talk to our hubby's ! I have seen  countless marriages  crumble from this mistake !!! You think one way well he has another thought ! Trust me it worth talking to him about it ! my sweet hubby tells me all the time I am beautiful ! I thank him for that !!! I recently expressed I really needed to go back to a healthier life style ! This is how he responded ! I think you are beautiful as you are and I don't think you need to loose weight ! Yet we should eat healthier and be more active ! That made my heart skip a beat !!! I know a few men who would never compliment their wives ... Instead tell them they could stand to loose a few pounds ! As we talked we discussed with our girls it was for health reasons ! Not diets ! That being healthy didn't mean becoming bean polls lol ! If weight loss comes great, if not I know my hubby is attracted to me !!!! I'm ever greatful for that !!! I have found when I change other things it helps when I talk to him and Dad about them as well ! When he helps me pray about it and we talk about it , often it helps make the process easier , when are both on board the same ship ! Trust me we have been on opposite ships before and it was anything but smooth sailing !!!!! When I did my devotion this morning it on these things ! I must say it truly hit home ! It made me think of times in my life when I didn't pray and just acted ! I was left spinning my tires ! Till finally I would realized this wasn't how my heavenly Dad wanted things ! Change is very hard ! No mater who you are ! It's even harder when you start to getting older ! I would truly advise anyone to spend time in prayer when your going to start changes talk to your hubby about it ! Remember your a team and when your cheering for the same things it sails much smoother !!! I'm glad Jesus never tires of my countless plans of change and He Has no fear to say no !!!!! That He is always there to help guide me when she says Yes !!! Are you spinning ?!?! If so take a step back talk to our heavenly Dad about it ! I promise you won't be disappointed !!! He so wants to be apart of all your aspects of life !!!! You will spend less time spinning and more time gaining new ground ! Praying you have an amazing week !!! 💛Shellie 

My Day Off ❤️

And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

                                        Philippians 4:7

Most of you know I am a wife ,homeschool Mom , First Lady of our church , childrens ministry administrator, friend , daughter , and much more ! In a nut shell I'm a busy lady most everyday !!! However I am very blessed !!! Wouldn't change any of it ! Monday's have been my day off for 2 yrs now ! Family day , no cleaning , ministry work , or school ! I usually spend it plain out resting ! I must say it's much needed for this house because Sunday is a constant go !!!! When I read my devotion this morning it was all about Keeping God in every aspect of your day !!! I am so glad I learned a long time ago, how important that is to do !!! Just because I take the day off He doesn't ! He still very much wants to be apart of my day ! So I include Him even on my days off !!! I have had a really relaxing day today ! I need it for my busy week to come ! I've read a book, took a hike , watched a little Netflix , and spent time with my family .... I am so very blessed wit this life God has given me ! So if you a very busy person like myself .... Please take oneday and call it your day off ! I promise you and your family will thank you !!! Until tomorrow , I pray your evening is filled with love and laughter ! Blessings 💜Shellie 

Finding my groove again !

I waited till this evening to blog on purpose ! I've had a very busy few days and I just needed my day to play out !!! Moving really threw me for a loop ! I had a lot of tragic things to take place in just a matter of weeks of us moving ! Although I love our new church and I have fell in love with being home again ! It was still very hard ! It is nice to have finally started finding a normal and doing things I love again !!!! For the first time in a year I had a tea party yesterday !!! At my daughters request at that !!! I was so excited !!! It wasn't one of our fancy ones , just simple !!! Yet it lit a fire !!! I'm so excited to enjoy things I love again !!! I hope to pick back up sewing as well ! A friend and I will be starting A Life Of Faith Girls Club next month in our church as well !!! I am starting to feel like me again ! Enjoying the things I love and it feels really good !!! I have prayed about these things for sometime ! I was loosing the desire to do the things that set me apart !!!' So I have decided, I will pick one day a week and do something I love !!! I am not sure the day will stay the same each week ! My schedule can often be a lil crazy ! So as long as I do something I love once a week I'll be happy !!! So my thought for this evening is ... Take each day and make a memory ! It's your day , you have the right to make it a good one even when it doesn't start out as you wished !!! Jesus can take a mess and make it a blessing 💖 Praying you have a blessed Sunday Shellie 

Psalms 18:24

This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.

When to be quiet ....

21 

21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.

Proverbs18:21

This I must say has never been a second nature for me ! I'm quick to speak if asked .... Sometimes that's a really good thing other times not so great ... I have been working on not reacting when upset for sometime now , I guess about a good year .... After someone I never thought would accuse me of something they knew wasn't true out of their anger .... I'll never forget those hot tears as they ran down my face .... All the years I had worked to show I was no longer that person was stipped away at that moment .... I remember being so upset I screamed I quit ! I am done ! No more ! I'm tired of being nice and sharing and getting trampled on all because I'm who a , "pastors wife "! My husband tried his best to soothe my brokenness .... He tried to make their wrong right .... He had to leave for awhile and he hadn't been gone long when the phone rang ! Much to my surprise the voice on the other line was who I needed right at that moment ! That Man of God will never know how his words changed my life !!!! This is what've said " it's okay to be angry sis , their words cut deep , but don't use words to hurt them back" ! Stand stonger than them ! Because you will always remember how their words made you feel , they will never forget how you didn't break ! After this mornings devotion I needed to remind myself of this ! Guys our tongues , have the power of life and death in them ! What we say about others to them and behind their backs can sometimes be the straw that breaks a camels back ..... We should speak life when we speak of someone or not speak at all and pray about it ! I went to bed upset woke up upset . So I wouldn't speak harsh words to my teenage daughter ! See we all have been young and known it all at some point .... Often we just need to let them live and learn .... Im trying to set an example .... 

Words have a lasting affect a stigma you could say .... For instance if you constantly talk abou yourself as fat and ugly. No matter how small you are and beautiful you are .... You will never see yourself that way ! Now I am trying to do some life changes right now healthier ones .... You won't hear diet , fat , or ugly out of my mouth.... Here is why ! I am fearfully and wonderfully made ! I may need some fine tuning but God made me beautiful exactly the way I am ! I am not suppose to be my sixteen year old self forever lol ! I'm okay with that ....so my prayer is that my words speak life not death ! Also not to allow those who speak those deadly words against me have any ground to stand on ! If your not good for me , I don't need you ! So let's use our tongues to speak life to those around us ! Like our Momma's taught us "if you can't say nothing nice don't say nothing at all"!  Praying each of you have a blessed day ! 💜Shellie

Kid Hero ❤️

Today was filled with many things , school , laundry , excersize, most of all dinner with my God family ! Almost 8yrs ago now we were blessed and asked to be God parents !!!! These kids will never know the joy they have brought to my life ! I love you Claudia and Dawson ! Almost a year and a half ago Dawsons parents received some disturbing news, our God son had a cyst on his brain that would require surgery ! He did great ! Come through surgery well , recovery was great ! At a routine 6 month check up right after we moved back home a spot seen during earlier scans had grown and raised suspicion ! Due to the size and placement of the tumor it to would require surgery ! This time it came back a rare form of brain cancer ....  He would spend the next three months at St. Judes ! Dawson is cancer free now !!!! I love it when my God shows up and proves Drs wrong ! We are almost to the 1 yr mark and it's time for scans again ! Even though he isn't fond of plane rides , needle , MRI machines , chemo one week a month for the next year , and countless drs appointments ! He never looses his laugh , smile , or sense of humor ! He is one of my heros in this life ! I don't know if he will ever know whatan impact   he has made  on my life !!! I am truly blessed to be apart of his life !!! So I spent the evening begging for pictures ,?stealing hugs , talking about our up coming lock-in at church , and praying for a safe trip !!!  He is so full of life ! I can't help to think how blessed I am to come home with healthy kids ! To not worry or wonder .... I'm blessed for the time I have with my God daughter during this time ! My girls always picked up like they were never apart... When we moved home this was still very true ! God was right on time , when He moved us home ! Because now I get enjoy that endless laughter and joy ! So just remember those days your kids are on your nerves .... That theres a Mommy somewhere would love to have one of those moments ! Hold your babies close and thank God for their health ... Honestly none of us never know ! I'm just glad that I know the Great Physician !!! He touched and Healed Dawson .... I can't wait to remind him he's my hero ...