When God seems quiet ....

 I have pondered a thought for several days now , about when God seems quite when we are praying .... 

      I have been praying earnestly about something dear to me for sometime now. I recently had a conversation with a very dear friend about her preparing for our up coming ladies meeting ! She told me she had prayed and prayed but the Lord has not shown her what she needed yet .... I responeded to her with this , sometimes God needs us to take our hands off of it and let Him handle it on His time .... We prayed and I encouraged her, also reminded her that God has something awesome for her .... It was two days later I received a text and she shares God has woken her up with one of the most amazing lessons for her to teach in her heart !!!! She reminded me that often the Teacher is quite during a test .... Because He wants to see what you will do .... 

I shouted my living room down !!! 

Wow I had truly been here before .... Praying for an answer and God was quite! My ohh my .... Did He show up when He seen my obedience to follow Him even into the unknown ! 

I did some cleaning out today .... Cleaned some closets up .... Turned a closet into a sewing area .... After I stood back and looked at the transformation .... It sent shivers up my spine when I felt my Dad whisper in my heart ! Just imagine the transformation I see in you when I look at you .... I knew then my prayers weren't going unheard or unanswered . He's teaching me something ..... I know He has my answer .... So I will praise Him in the Hallway !!! While I wait for His answer !!!!! 

Thanks for stopping by ! 

💖 Shellie 

Wow sorry it's been so long ! Yikes

                                                                                

                                                                                                                                                           

                                          

Where has the time gone ! I didn't even realize it had been that long ! I'm so sorry ...My I have had lots going on ! I started my book I am so excited ! I love what I have so far ! I haven't really kicked off my sewing completely .... I did a t shirt quilt and some memory bears ! Then I got really sick ! I have been on  bed rest for about a month all together then had my appendix removed ! Gods been good through it all, surgery was a scary thought for me !  He seen me right through and now I'm on the road to  recovery ! Slow going but getting there !!! I had forgotten how much I love blogging ! 

     It's almost that time here homeschool time ! We have already picked out out curriculiam for this year and if the mail cooperates it will be here by Saturday ! I am excited with our choices and ready to get lesson plans together! Crazy thing our official start date is weeks away ! We are taking a much needed family vacation in September ! I can't wait !!!! It's seems like it's been forever since we unplugged and just enjoyed being together ! When we return we start our school adventures !!! I plan to blog our way thru our school year this year ! It makes me accountable lol ! We have always done school our own way and I love it !!!! I would not want it any other way !!!! So remember us in prayer ! I'm excited about sharing this journey with you !!! Blessings and love Shellie💜

Gods Showing Me What's Next

                                                                             

  

 A little over a month ago, I shared I had been praying about what God would have me do next ! After talking to my Heavenly Dad and sweet hubby about it! I am excited to say that I know in my heart what is to be next ! For years I have dreamed of a doll boutique ! A lil shop all of my own filled with my creations ! Although that part may not come for awhile ! However I do plan to start my own online website in the near future and sell 18 inch doll clothes and accessories! I am so excited that even my hubby confirmed that I am always happiest when I sew what I love ! I love to create for 18 inch dolls! That wasn't all that God showed me though ! I am going to attempt to write a book ! That part is still a secret because it won't be what most think it will be ! However I am super excited about this step into my future ! I know God has great plans for me ! 

So all who would please keep me in your prayers ! God is good and I am so thank full for his blessings!

Stronger !!!!

 

This time last week I was leaving Pigeon Forge heading back home ! A group of awesome ladies joined me at the Women of Joy Confrence !!!! 

   This is a late blog since I came home with vertigo ! Still feeling some of its effects ! 

    However I just couldn't wait to share what a blessing last weekend had been for me !!! I so enjoyed the worship !!! The carefree feeling of giving my Lord praise in up lifted hand , shouts , singing , and dancing feet !!!!! I love to show my Dad how much I love him !!!! 

    The theme was stronger !!!! I must say I left stronger !!!! Hearing each guest speaker I felt my soul let go and grow in such a stronger more intimate way in Jesus !!!! 

 Letting go of chains and embracing the hardships and finding joy ! A true joy that come from inside that can only be given by a mighty Saviour ! 

    It is said true joy come from a deep strength found inside ... No matter what the circumstances are !!!! 

      I truly pray I can carry that joy into each day God gives me !!! 

   I heard some awesome new speakers I wasn't familar with ! I am so glad my awesome Dad placed them in my life !!! 

Here is there names check them out I promise you won't be disappointed !!! 

Margret Feinberg 

Hope Heals - Kathrine Wolf 

Lisa Harper 

Angela Thomas 

Anita Renfroe 

Mandissa

Each of these ladies touched my heart in life changing ways !!!! Take a moment to google them ! Look them up on Facebook ! I promise you won't be disappointed !  

   That's not all that happened while I was away ! God revealed the dreams he wanted me to peruse !!!! I am super excited !!! To be who he created me to be! 

   I'm so blessed to be a child of the King! Fearfully and wonderfully made !!!! I'm blessed!!!! Stronger because I accept the child He created !!! The child He loves unconditionally ! That child is me !!! I embrace who I am !!! So I can be stronger in Him !!!! I can't wait to go again next year !!!! I'm so excited for what this year holds !!! All the things he has placed in my heart !!! Thanks for reading ! I can't wait to share His future plans !!! 

Here are some pictures from Confrence ! Hope you enjoy ! 💜Shellie 

   

   

Just in case your wondering there was 9,000 ladies in a sold out coliseum !!!! 

             God sure is good !!!!

Dreaming .....

But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.  

Mathew 9:26

 I recently shared with my husband something's .... Well I haven't shared before .... Dreams .... Things I would like to do ! 

     I know it sounds silly, in some ways ... I have a very busy life ! My family unit and our ministry are to priorities over all ! I can't help but feel the talents God has given each of us ... Well he wants us to use them ! 

     So I asked my sweet husband to pray for me ! As I seek God and use those talents ... 

    For years I have found extreme pleasure in sewing !!! It is like therapy for my soul ! Lately I have thrown the idea around of making custom  boutique kids clothing to sell online ... 

     Also praying about finishing my book about my life .... This one is tough for me! It's a scary thought to let people in again! 

    Lastly a tea room ! I would love to host tea parties for special events !!!! 

      I know these are dreams right now ! I am praying the Lord guides my heart !

     I have been a homeschool stay at home Mommy for 17 yrs now ! It's hard to imagine that journey will soon be over ... In just a few short years ! 

My babies are growing up fast !!! I am so proud of the young women they are !!! They will ever know the joy they give me daily .... 

     So for now these are prayers and dreams as I follow the Lords leading .... So I will ask you to do the same ... Pray for me .... It's in those still quite moments of the still mornings .... I love to share my heart .... Not only share but listen for my Dad to speak and guide my foot steps ...

Hope each of you have an amazingly blessed day ! 

💜 Shellie .....

What if Your Blessings Come Through Rain Drops ?!?!

A few years ago Laura Story came out with one of the most amazing a songs ! Blessings ..... It has been my theme song in life for some time .... When I last blogged I announced we were buying our very first home !!!! What a wonderful blessing it has been !!!! We have been in our new home a little over a month now !!! I am so in love with it !!! If some one would have told me 7 years ago all of this would have been possible .... I would have told you ... Well your crazy .... 

    I sure am glad when everything doesn't make sense to me ....God ... Well He already knows the end ! 

    Not long before the decision of moving our van started acting up ... So we had some work done to correct the problem ... Everything was smooth sailing .... So I thought .... About 3 wks ago it seemed the rug had been pulled out from under us ... After a week long visit with my other daughter from another mommy ! My youngest best friend ... I was headed to take her home 3 1/2 hours away ! One hour away from our destination our transmission goes out in my van !!!! 

      You know there is no way to explain the raw emotion I was feeling in my heart right then ... This our family vehicle ! The only one we have !!! Now it's stranded ... I'm not sure what will happen next .... 

    Needles to say that during this storm...

God had An amazing blessing for our family !!! From the moment it happened we never went with out a vehicle !!! Today  God made the way for us to purchase the truck we have been driving !!! I would have never seen that coming ! 

In the ministry I have learned that normal when a blessing comes there will be a storm ... This was a storm ... I learned a lot through this ! 

1- God never makes a mistake 

2- others are watching to see how your going to react 

3- you can't loose faith

4. The teacher is always quite during your test ! 

I can truly say that I handled this so well for me ! Lol I don't do falling apart   well ... However I had such a peace ... When it all happened ! I couldn't help to feel so humbled to have looked back and seen how much I have changed .... 

God has truly changed this girl .... I'm glad that even through the many storms I have faced in the lifetime .... That I have found many blessings come when the rain is the hardest there are blessings in the blessing is richer !!!! 

   So I have decided that when it the hardest ... I need to just dance in the rain...

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

💜Shellie 

Packing up ....

I have always loved adventure .... It really thrills my heart .... As much as I enjoy tea parties ! I will take an adventure over that any day !!!! 

   So my family is about to embrace a new one ! One I have never traveled before !!! That leaves me both excited and nervouse however !!! 

  We are going to buy our first home !!!! As a pastors wife I never have given it much thought !!!! To owning my own home ....  I'm excited to know a home will be mine !!!! 

     So that means packing up and moving one more time !!!! I plan to begin the packing process this week !!! I am so excited to decorate a new home ! Although packing isn't my favorite thing , I am good at it ! It won't take to long !!!! 

    We had talked before we moved last year about buying something , so we prayed and left it for the Lord to sort out ! So if my post are kinda scattered bear with me !!!! I have a lot to do in a short time !!! Pray for our journey !!!! I know it's going to be exciting ! 

Blessings 💜 Shellie

God is never late ....

I woke before my family did this morning ... We have a very busy day ahead of us ... I wanted to make sure I had time to spend with the Lord , before I was consumed with other responsibilities ! As I sat down to do my devotion the words have never been more fitting ! Bone-weary , exhaustion ,and to much for you !!! What did my sweet Lord tell my secret prayers !!!! I know He didn't my heavenly Dad would never do such a thing ... However He knew what I needed , I am thankful ! I know I am on His path , make no mistake about that !!!! I just need a little reminder sometime that He is still with me during this battle !!! I am thrilled to know He is !!! I don't ever want to be so busy that I am not attentive to Him ! I know He's guiding each of my steps !!! I think for awhile I will just crawl up in Daddy's lap and let Him carry me awhile ! I am blessed to know He will !!! For in His presence there shall always be peace !!!

Hope each of you have a blessed weekend ! Blessings 💜Shellie

Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God. Psalm 42:11

Tail Spinning Thoughts

What a title I know !!! Yet it stands very true for me ! I have this ability to have 50 million things going through my head and set them aside to do something else ! With the intention to return to them and think them through or shut them off !!! Problem is I I often forget to do just those two simple things !!!! 

   So instead of the 50 million I woke up with I go to bed to add more the next morning !!!! Only to find myself very overwhelmed !!! As I was doing my devotion this morning I wasn't shocked to read that the Lord had the perfect solution ! Why wasn't I giving them over to Him ? Even if it does need my attention He still wants me to include Him! After all He isn't surprised by them , He knows they are there ! He just isn't going to make me include Him !!! My problem is I'm a very creative person so I tend to be all over the place , I can be doing school and see a milk jug and think of how to turn it into a awesome basket and still be on task .... Yet in my little mind I see no need to let God handle it such an unimportant thought ! After all He is God and He is busy curing cancer He doesn't care about my project ! However He does !!!! You know He created me, thats why I am who I am !!! So of course He wants me to share !!!!i guess my point is that we are all guilty of letting our thoughts get out of control ! Wether they are are good or bad thoughts ! We often think of ourselves as super human who needs to handle everything on our own ! Here is how my devotion started " Keep your focus on Me. I have gifted you with amazing freedom , including the ability to choose the focal point of your mind. Only the crown of My creation has such remarkable capability ; this is a sign of being made in My image ! 

I choose to make God my focal point , not to let my thoughts spin out of control, leading to frustration , overwhelmed , and spinning out of control ! I am after all made in Him image !!!  I should take pride in that and Him .... So I choose to share all things with Him even petty things !!! With Him all things are possible !!! Even calming the storms of my mind !!!! 

Blessings 💜Shellie

But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.

Mathew 19:26

Being Content .....

I have been thinking alot lately about my blessed life !!!! I must say I am truly blessed!!! Being a stay at home Mom for 19 yrs , I have seen many things come and go ! Some good some bad .... I can remember times not feeling like I was enough or that I should be more .... Or my family needs that or this , when we already have plenty .... I got hurt over the weekend so my normal has been anything but ... Has led me watching more TV than usual .... I noticed or was reminded what I already knew .... It is nothing but a reminder of what your not ... Or leave you wanting for things you don't need ... So I had to find a alternative ! So I worked on some church things ... While I was preparing for a future A Life Of Faith Tea Party ! I realized that years ago people were content and thankful for all they had ... They were content in their own homes .... With their own families ... Never looking for what the other had ... Insted they pulled together to help one another ... Carrying the load of one another ... We lost much over the generations progressing into the here and now ... We left behind many of the important staples we should have carried with us ... Such as pulling together to help one another , praying as families , spending time together as family , moms teaching their daughters life skills , having meals together , and the list goes on .... I am so thankful for the most part my family still does these things ! It would do us all good to learn some lessons from Ma and Pa Ingalls ... Spend time with one another and bloom where you are and don't look to this old world to bloom in the ways of it ....hope you all have a very blessed evening !!! 

💜 Shellie

Child of a King 👑

As a pastors wife you learn real quick you live in a glass house ! Expected to be perfect , in all you do especially your kids ! They actually learn real quick the part they are expected to play as well ! They see both the good and the bad side of church ! They see the hurt and the joys that come from serving !!!! As a pastors wife and a mom , one of your biggest fears is that your child has learned how to live as a Christian yet hasnt quite gotten it .... I had began questioning just that after our move .... My youngest daughter had been struggling and battling no other than a spiritual battle that would shake our family to its core !!!! So I decided to take my concerns to my heavenly Dad !!!! Left them with Him !!!! I never lost hope !!! It wasn't my place to judge ! Only she knew if her confession of salvation was real or not ! Crazy I know but that Mommy instinct just wouldn't go away !!! Sunday after church my hubby felt the need to walk over and join in with the youth service ! I was talking with some of the ladies , hadn't paid much attention of how much time had passed ... When they returned , they had awesome news !!!! My sweet girl asked Jesus in her heart for real !!! There was a difference this time in her face , eyes , and what she said !!! She told me the other times it was just a prayer , she had never truly trusted Jesus with anything really till last night !!! She felt different !!! She was beaming !!!! I'm so proud she can no truly say she is a child of the King !!!! My God sure is good !!! Never cease to storm the throne room over something in your heart !!! Even if it doesn't quite make sense !!!! Because our thoughts are near and dear to our sweet Lord !!!! 

Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6 

I'm glad she is still learning and I'm still teaching her !!! Blessings Shellie 💜

Trusting my Lord ❤️

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”

Deuteronomy 31:6

I have spent a lot of time reflecting the past few days ! As I have enjoyed my blessed week ! January 21st is such a harsh day for my heart ... It marks the anniversary of my Mommaw going home & the birthday of the little boy we were going to adopt ... He is five now .... It has never bothered me as much as it did this year !!! Unfortunately it has been a wave of emotions this year ! We lost the adoption in the moms 8 month .... Nursery was ready , we were ready to bring him home .... I must remind myself Gods knows best ! We often plan our lives even when we knew God was in is agreeing to adopt! He changed the plan ! It's often rough on us when God changes up His plan ... As the years have passed I have realized why God changed the plan around... He seen things I could not ! But know now ....Thay reminds me to be strong and courages !!! Because He is always with me!!!! God is good even when He changes His mind ! He had my interest in mind ! He will never leave me or forsake me !!!! He knows the plans , I'm so willing to follow ! How about you !!!! Blessings 💜Shellie 

When Everything we Try seems it isn't working !

 And  he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.

Luke 9:23

We all go through those times in our lives, when everything we touch or try just doesn't seem like it's working !!! I have been there countless times !!!! Some of you may be there now !!!! I have found more times than not , we are spinning our wheels ! The reason why is because all to often we forget to ask our our heavenly Dad if it's what He wants ! I know that sounds silly , but it's true ! For instance it's that time of year again everyone is wanting to diet ! Either that want to be healthier or they need to loose weight ! I cringe when I read I want to loose such and such by such and such date ! Here's another good one to consider I believe I will change the way I do things because so and so said I need to change things up ! Let me ask some questions ! First have you really spent time talking to our heavenly Dad about it ? Have you asked Him if that's the order He have you do things ? When it come to diets have you talked to Your Heavenly Dad and your hubby ? More times than Not the answer to that is no !!! It ends up leaving us frustrated and over whelmed ! You see It's important to talk to our hubby's ! I have seen  countless marriages  crumble from this mistake !!! You think one way well he has another thought ! Trust me it worth talking to him about it ! my sweet hubby tells me all the time I am beautiful ! I thank him for that !!! I recently expressed I really needed to go back to a healthier life style ! This is how he responded ! I think you are beautiful as you are and I don't think you need to loose weight ! Yet we should eat healthier and be more active ! That made my heart skip a beat !!! I know a few men who would never compliment their wives ... Instead tell them they could stand to loose a few pounds ! As we talked we discussed with our girls it was for health reasons ! Not diets ! That being healthy didn't mean becoming bean polls lol ! If weight loss comes great, if not I know my hubby is attracted to me !!!! I'm ever greatful for that !!! I have found when I change other things it helps when I talk to him and Dad about them as well ! When he helps me pray about it and we talk about it , often it helps make the process easier , when are both on board the same ship ! Trust me we have been on opposite ships before and it was anything but smooth sailing !!!!! When I did my devotion this morning it on these things ! I must say it truly hit home ! It made me think of times in my life when I didn't pray and just acted ! I was left spinning my tires ! Till finally I would realized this wasn't how my heavenly Dad wanted things ! Change is very hard ! No mater who you are ! It's even harder when you start to getting older ! I would truly advise anyone to spend time in prayer when your going to start changes talk to your hubby about it ! Remember your a team and when your cheering for the same things it sails much smoother !!! I'm glad Jesus never tires of my countless plans of change and He Has no fear to say no !!!!! That He is always there to help guide me when she says Yes !!! Are you spinning ?!?! If so take a step back talk to our heavenly Dad about it ! I promise you won't be disappointed !!! He so wants to be apart of all your aspects of life !!!! You will spend less time spinning and more time gaining new ground ! Praying you have an amazing week !!! 💛Shellie 

My Day Off ❤️

And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

                                        Philippians 4:7

Most of you know I am a wife ,homeschool Mom , First Lady of our church , childrens ministry administrator, friend , daughter , and much more ! In a nut shell I'm a busy lady most everyday !!! However I am very blessed !!! Wouldn't change any of it ! Monday's have been my day off for 2 yrs now ! Family day , no cleaning , ministry work , or school ! I usually spend it plain out resting ! I must say it's much needed for this house because Sunday is a constant go !!!! When I read my devotion this morning it was all about Keeping God in every aspect of your day !!! I am so glad I learned a long time ago, how important that is to do !!! Just because I take the day off He doesn't ! He still very much wants to be apart of my day ! So I include Him even on my days off !!! I have had a really relaxing day today ! I need it for my busy week to come ! I've read a book, took a hike , watched a little Netflix , and spent time with my family .... I am so very blessed wit this life God has given me ! So if you a very busy person like myself .... Please take oneday and call it your day off ! I promise you and your family will thank you !!! Until tomorrow , I pray your evening is filled with love and laughter ! Blessings 💜Shellie 

Finding my groove again !

I waited till this evening to blog on purpose ! I've had a very busy few days and I just needed my day to play out !!! Moving really threw me for a loop ! I had a lot of tragic things to take place in just a matter of weeks of us moving ! Although I love our new church and I have fell in love with being home again ! It was still very hard ! It is nice to have finally started finding a normal and doing things I love again !!!! For the first time in a year I had a tea party yesterday !!! At my daughters request at that !!! I was so excited !!! It wasn't one of our fancy ones , just simple !!! Yet it lit a fire !!! I'm so excited to enjoy things I love again !!! I hope to pick back up sewing as well ! A friend and I will be starting A Life Of Faith Girls Club next month in our church as well !!! I am starting to feel like me again ! Enjoying the things I love and it feels really good !!! I have prayed about these things for sometime ! I was loosing the desire to do the things that set me apart !!!' So I have decided, I will pick one day a week and do something I love !!! I am not sure the day will stay the same each week ! My schedule can often be a lil crazy ! So as long as I do something I love once a week I'll be happy !!! So my thought for this evening is ... Take each day and make a memory ! It's your day , you have the right to make it a good one even when it doesn't start out as you wished !!! Jesus can take a mess and make it a blessing 💖 Praying you have a blessed Sunday Shellie 

Psalms 18:24

This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.

When to be quiet ....

21 

21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.

Proverbs18:21

This I must say has never been a second nature for me ! I'm quick to speak if asked .... Sometimes that's a really good thing other times not so great ... I have been working on not reacting when upset for sometime now , I guess about a good year .... After someone I never thought would accuse me of something they knew wasn't true out of their anger .... I'll never forget those hot tears as they ran down my face .... All the years I had worked to show I was no longer that person was stipped away at that moment .... I remember being so upset I screamed I quit ! I am done ! No more ! I'm tired of being nice and sharing and getting trampled on all because I'm who a , "pastors wife "! My husband tried his best to soothe my brokenness .... He tried to make their wrong right .... He had to leave for awhile and he hadn't been gone long when the phone rang ! Much to my surprise the voice on the other line was who I needed right at that moment ! That Man of God will never know how his words changed my life !!!! This is what've said " it's okay to be angry sis , their words cut deep , but don't use words to hurt them back" ! Stand stonger than them ! Because you will always remember how their words made you feel , they will never forget how you didn't break ! After this mornings devotion I needed to remind myself of this ! Guys our tongues , have the power of life and death in them ! What we say about others to them and behind their backs can sometimes be the straw that breaks a camels back ..... We should speak life when we speak of someone or not speak at all and pray about it ! I went to bed upset woke up upset . So I wouldn't speak harsh words to my teenage daughter ! See we all have been young and known it all at some point .... Often we just need to let them live and learn .... Im trying to set an example .... 

Words have a lasting affect a stigma you could say .... For instance if you constantly talk abou yourself as fat and ugly. No matter how small you are and beautiful you are .... You will never see yourself that way ! Now I am trying to do some life changes right now healthier ones .... You won't hear diet , fat , or ugly out of my mouth.... Here is why ! I am fearfully and wonderfully made ! I may need some fine tuning but God made me beautiful exactly the way I am ! I am not suppose to be my sixteen year old self forever lol ! I'm okay with that ....so my prayer is that my words speak life not death ! Also not to allow those who speak those deadly words against me have any ground to stand on ! If your not good for me , I don't need you ! So let's use our tongues to speak life to those around us ! Like our Momma's taught us "if you can't say nothing nice don't say nothing at all"!  Praying each of you have a blessed day ! 💜Shellie

Kid Hero ❤️

Today was filled with many things , school , laundry , excersize, most of all dinner with my God family ! Almost 8yrs ago now we were blessed and asked to be God parents !!!! These kids will never know the joy they have brought to my life ! I love you Claudia and Dawson ! Almost a year and a half ago Dawsons parents received some disturbing news, our God son had a cyst on his brain that would require surgery ! He did great ! Come through surgery well , recovery was great ! At a routine 6 month check up right after we moved back home a spot seen during earlier scans had grown and raised suspicion ! Due to the size and placement of the tumor it to would require surgery ! This time it came back a rare form of brain cancer ....  He would spend the next three months at St. Judes ! Dawson is cancer free now !!!! I love it when my God shows up and proves Drs wrong ! We are almost to the 1 yr mark and it's time for scans again ! Even though he isn't fond of plane rides , needle , MRI machines , chemo one week a month for the next year , and countless drs appointments ! He never looses his laugh , smile , or sense of humor ! He is one of my heros in this life ! I don't know if he will ever know whatan impact   he has made  on my life !!! I am truly blessed to be apart of his life !!! So I spent the evening begging for pictures ,?stealing hugs , talking about our up coming lock-in at church , and praying for a safe trip !!!  He is so full of life ! I can't help to think how blessed I am to come home with healthy kids ! To not worry or wonder .... I'm blessed for the time I have with my God daughter during this time ! My girls always picked up like they were never apart... When we moved home this was still very true ! God was right on time , when He moved us home ! Because now I get enjoy that endless laughter and joy ! So just remember those days your kids are on your nerves .... That theres a Mommy somewhere would love to have one of those moments ! Hold your babies close and thank God for their health ... Honestly none of us never know ! I'm just glad that I know the Great Physician !!! He touched and Healed Dawson .... I can't wait to remind him he's my hero ... 

Glad He knows the way ....

And he said, “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”

                   Exodus 33:14

I finally feel human again !!! Thank you Jesus for your healing !!!! This weekend has been very busy for me ! However I am happy I felt like keeping up with it ! I spent some time with my sister This weekend !!! I am so blessed to have her ! We finished up going through the last of the things that came from my nephews when he passed away ! It was very emotional most of what was left was my my MawMaw's .... It was her things from her house in West Virgina .... There was a lot of time traveling .... So many memories attached to each peice .... I was beyond astonished when my sister called me the other day ... She had came across a box , when she opened it up it had a bunch of little boxes and they had my name on them !!! Much to my surprise it was my MawMaw's Rose parrerned China !!!! Years ago I had asked in the event of something happened to her could I please have the tea set ?!? She told me that day to take it, I didn't want it till she couldn't enjoy it herself anymore ... Life happened things happened ... I was told it was gone .... I am blessed to have it with me now !!!! As I took my Christmas decorations today , I had forgotten about all the little things I had gotten when Josh passed away .... The wave of emotions ... Were so strong .... I found my self talking to my heavenly Dad about how I felt , all through my day !!! Telling how my heart ached for my sister and nephew .... How I missed their voices , laughter , and smiles ! He reminded me he holds the map of my life ! When I get caught in the valley He is there to lift me out !!!! To help me get to higher grounds !!! I am so glad He is !!! With out Him I'm afraid I would drown ... He eased my hurt and helped me get through my day !!!! My house is now back to normal , disinfected , and fresh decor ! 

 Not sure why , but I love to change things up ! What an awesome opportunity to do so ... When your taking down ... To put new out ! Needless to say we will be kicking off school tomorrow ! Also a healthier me !!! I plan to start excersizing again !!!! So glad my heavenly Dad holds tomorrow !!! I plan to let Him hold the map and lead the way ! Hope you guys have a blessed evening !!!

 💖Shellie 

Giving Praise

My devotion this morning was such an amazing reminder ! It's was all about praise ! Better yet praising even when it's hard !!! It really made me reflect and ask some questions ! Such as do I praise him only when it's easy? Do I praise Him daily? Do my kids see and hear me praise Him ? I was quite surprised and pleased to realize I do much better than I thought ! However there is always room for improvement !!!! I looked over my prayer journal , asked my kids , and looked back at text messages  !!! I was so honored to hear and read responses from all areas that I had made them feel better at certain times in life ... Even in the hard times .... I was amazed at the change I seen from several years ago to now ! How much easier it was to thank and praise God even when it's hard too !!!! I guess I have realized that there is never a moment that should go with out praise ! You see I know the creator of the heavens and the earth ! He knew all that would be that day !!! If experienced heart ache and joy in this life !!! I thank my heavenly Dad for each part the sad and the happy ! Because each have helped me to see the big picture .... That all things work together for His glory ! It's apart of my story ! One day I hope my story changes someone's life ... It helps them to see it's possible !!! There is a rainbow at the end !!! I pray that my Praise is increases daily !!!!! I will sing praise I will lift my voice ! I will sing praise I have made my choice 💜 I hope your day is filled with praise and blessings !!! 💜 Shellie

146 
2 will praise the Lord as long as I live; I will sing praises to my God while I have my being.

146 Praise the Lord!
Praise the Lord, O my soul!
2 I will praise the Lord as long as I live;
    I will sing praises to my God while I have my being.

Psalm 146:1-2

Make it count !

.... I have spent a lot of time reflecting the past few days .... Well let's be honest being laid up on the couch hasn't left much choice .... I felt some better yesterday ! I was so excited I just knew I would even better today and school and cleaning would surely begin ! 

Then it happened ... I woke up feeling awful again !!!! I was so disappointed ! I decided not to pout about it and just rest .... As I did my devotion I realized God wasn't surprised He knew ! I am can just imagine him laughing at me ! Because He knows me ! I'm sure He finds me humorous to know I can't clean and I am going to start school back next week ! My perfect plans have been turned upside down !!!! My OCD self can not stand for things to be out of order !!! My heavenly Dad must think that He needs to switch life up for me !

    It was As I was reading my devotion though I realized it may feel like gloom today , but later when I look back I will see just how God used it to build something better ! I have enjoyed the morning and afternoon conversations with my college girl !!! The lazy hang out afternoons with my youngest teen ... The not so hustle bustle of ministry life and a homeschool mom ... I haven't been happy about being sick ... I realized that God enjoys it when we slow down and enjoy Him as well !!! I love my time with him ! I realized today I have been through a lot of changes last year!!! Some were very hard ! Others not so bad ..... One this is for sure though ... I like her the woman I have became .... She is kind , gentle , loving ,creative , but she can hold her own ! Above all though she has realized With God I can do all things !!! And we have no where to go but up from here !!! Blessings guys ! ❤️Shellie 

Only time .....

It's taken me all day to muster up the courage to blog .... I still haven't felt well ... That wasn't it though .... Today marks a very hard day .... It's hard to believe this time 2 yrs ago I was making my way to West Virgina ... After a phone call from my sister Jackline .... I'll never forget how the call began ... Shellie I don't want to upset you ! Then there was a pause ... That was followed by I just received a call Laurie (my oldest sister ) had been un responsive for thirty minutes and they had revived her she was on a reparatior! I needed to come .... The days leading up to this was beyond belief ! We had talked really talked for the first time in years !!!we had laughed , cried , shared memories.  & most of all told one another how proud we were of each other .... That wasn't something that normally came easy for us ... We had a strained relationship for many years ... Life had not always been kind .... Choices made things worse ... However on Christmas Eve she called and told me she had accepted Jesus as her Savioir !!!! I was on top of the world !!! We let things that plagued is go .... Several days later our Uncle died ... She was beside herself .... She asked me 4 times to come home !!! She needed to see me ! I just couldn't .... I couldn't go for many reasons .... 5 days later I would make that trip any ways .... I never thought the last conversation we had telling each other how proud we were to be each other's sister would be the last time I would hear her say bean I love you ! Always remember that okay ..... 

  I have lost many through the years ... Nothing prepared me for this loss ... I felt like when I saw her on that bed apart of me was laying there with her .... Left with her the next day .... When she left this world for her heavenly home.... She never woke up .... She never responded to our voices or touch .... She was a shell that was empty it seemed ... I'll never ever forget before the decision was made to turn the machine off ... We all gathered by her bed and sang .... She was always so full of life and loved to sing ... She had the voice of an angel .... I couldn't help but think she was singing now .... Maybe not with us !!! Yet at the feet of Jesus !!! With The one just days before have her a new life and a promise of eternal life just days before!!! I couldn't help but think how lucky she was .... Today marks 2 years .... Much has happened .... Even though in some ways it's easier ... In others it's not ... I'm not sure your heart ever gets over loosing someone we love .... I think we will always miss their presence ... Especially during the holidays ... Anniversary and of course Birthdays .... Today a thought crossed my mind ... Tomorrow marks her eternal birthday !!! Meaning I will see her again , I will hear her sing , laugh , feel her hug me once more , and most excitedly hear her call me Bean !!!!! I know there will be days that are harder than others , I know Jesus understands after all He cried when He heard the news of Lazzareth ... So I know he understand my hurting heart ... I wasn't shocked when my devotion matched my aching heart this morning ! That's just how amazing my God is !!! He's always on time !!!! So I will leave you with a thought and some scripture ! Always make time to make. Memory , take pictures even if you don't want too , forgive quickly , and always say  I love you !!! You never know when it will be your last time !!!! I'm glad I did those things with Laurie before she went home .... I want to leave you with this scripture John 16:33 says :

I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

Im glad that with Jesus there is peace !

Many Blessings Shellie 

My sweet sissy when I was 16 !!! This one of my favorite pictures of her 💜

Another day at His feet !

I love when I think I have it all figured out ! Then my heavenly Dad slams on the brakes !!!! Well I posted yesterday I woke up feeling bad .... Well today is no better all except I'm not gasping to breathe ! Which is always a good thing ! I just knew I was going to get my long to do list done for the next few day .... Well Dad (God) said NO !!!! On the couch you shall be for at least another day or so ! So I spent the morning canceling ministry meetings in between my two naps .... Sulking because I have no idea how I am ever going to get caught up ! Then I read my devotion ... It began just like this :Relax In My Healing Presence ! I think my Lord is telling me to slow down !!!! So I continued on reading to realize that this devotion was going to crawl right up beside me camp out awhile .... After reading my scripture I realized something .... I am so much like Martha busy ! I need to be more of a Mary in this Martha world .... My scripture today came from Luke 10:39-42 

Mary who sat at the Lord's feet and listened to his teaching. 40 But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.”41 But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things,42 but one thing is necessary.[a] Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.”

I'm on a daily basis a busy person ... In general ... I don't have much down time .... After the past few days ... I think God is showing me it's time to slow down , spend more time at His feet learn to enjoy the simple things ! Even if it means being on the couch sick with a fever !  I want my Lord to be pleased with me ...! I think I have also realized I need to slow down and enjoy my family more ... Meetings , cleaning , school, and other things can wait till I feel better .... Enjoying my time with the Lord is always top of my daily list ... It's amazing !!!!  So another day on the couch it is ....  

I would like to leave you guys with the scripture ....

4 Seek the Lord and his strength;
    seek his presence continually! 

                          Psalm 105:4

Pray your day is filled with moments at His feet ..... Blessings ..... Shellie

A Teachable Spirit

.... I awoke with a fever and the crud again !!!! I was so frustrated ... I have so many things to do .... Take tree down, clean house, prepare to start school back, prepare for ministry meetings , and the list goes on !!!! So after breakfast and a hot bath I set in the couch .... Wandering why on earth did I have this stuff again ! Then when I asked Jody to bring my devotion book I caught a glimpse of why possibly .... My devotion came from Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world,[a] but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

I started an amazing devotional by Sarah Young Jesus Calling ! The very first sentence was , "come to Me with a teachable spirit , eager to be changed ...

It was then I realized ,that I have me best talks with God when I feel bad ... Because there is nothing to distract me !!!! I want to always have a teachable spirit .... To learn from my Heavenly Farher daily !!!! Today's lesson was just this .... Sometimes His plans aren't my own.... I need to slow down take care of my body , the chores will be there tomorrow or when I feel better , meetings can be rescheduled , but time alone with Him comes everyday .... To learn what adventure with Him is next !!!! It's sure to be amazing ! He never fails to offer hope ... Love or grace ! He also never makes. Mistake .... So the couch for me it is today ..... I have already learned so much from my teacher today .... I'm so blessed to call Jesus mine !!!! I would like to leave you with a scripture to think about toady ... For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare[a] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11 

I pray you too trust Jesus with your plans ... Hope everyone has a blessed day !!! Happy New Year !!!! Praying your 2015 is filled with blessing , hope , joy , love , and of course lessons from the Master ....

Shellie